Mechanic

All the things you
could never teach me
fall from me
like so many
angels
I've spent years
carving your face
into mine
with your old
rusted knives
and it doesn't hurt
any less
now
and it never will
The only thing I
have ever wanted
truly
is for you
to save me
from every
molecule
and for you
to hug me
and tell me
that I am worth so much more
than the rot
growing
on my heart
all these years
without you